Sorry

it's been a while since my last post (my first post actually)... kinda busy these past few weeks...

well just want to share something that happened to me this week...

i am enrolled in a summer class taking up one of my major subjects because i need to, you probably know why, right? haha...

we had our first exam yesterday (imagine, we only have one week left and still have three exams to take!) which was supposed to be taken Wednesday of last week... sadly, our instructor got mad at us because of misunderstanding...

the story...

wednesday, the day of our supposed exam came... we still had a discussion in the morning since the exam was scheduled in the afternoon. while we are in class, we begged our instructor to move the exam because we are not ready yet... we even told him the note written on the syllabus that 'the schedule of the exam and other requirements would be decided by the class'... we were laughing hard because our classmate who was doing the pleading thing so funny...

however, we we're not prepared for the next scene...

out instructor blotted out 'am i not part of the class?... all i'm thinking is is the good for all of you... if i'm going to move the exam, the interval from exam to exam would be tight and you might have a difficulty studying... besides, i've already told you the schedule of the exam a week ago, so you should now be prepared...' after saying that, our instructor get on with the discussion...

after he finishes the class, he walked out and said 'fine, exam on friday class hours...' and we're like 'what?' we got what we wanted but on the negative side of it...

first... the supposed 4 hour exam was reduced to two hours...

second... our instructor is mad at us and its something that makes the situation heavy and difficult...

after that incident, some of our classmates waited for him to say sorry... but none of them succeeded because our instructor won't show up or speak up to us...

friday came... he did not show up... the janitor just posted a message that says 'exam cancelled moved on may 5 (monday)... make up class also cancelled' and we were like 'what? but we only have 9 days until the end of the summer? why? doesn't he want to see us?'

we all went home sad, confused, and somehow guilty...

while others were irritated because of the attitude of our instructor? but who could blame him? we were wrong in the first place... being so selfish and all that... we must have hurt really hurt him...

monday came and we had the exam... everyone was quiet until the end... still, there's heaviness in the place and seems that everything is still not okay...

today...

we had our very first discussion since the incident... well, the discussion is okay, the class is okay, but not as good and jolly and easy as before... most of us are just quiet and afraid to say something... our instructor also says some bitter words which makes us sad all the more...

this is not okay anymore! and so, I, together with my two friends came up with a decision... this is a class problem and since we are part of the class, we have to make a move... we decided to go to our instructor and say sorry... just sorry, nothing more nothing less... if he accepts it then great, if not, at least we've tried and did out part...

while nearing to our instructor's room, my heart pounds so much... i don't know how to say it... it's just a simple word... but with a lot of feelings and meanings on it... we knocked on the door, no answer was heard... we waited, roam around the whole college to find him, but still we failed...

so we went back to his room, knocked again... silence is still there...

and so, we just decided to leave a note... just when i'm about to write a note, the door opened... (our instructor is sleeping that's why he did not heard the knock :P)

i'm startled... confused... caught unprepared... but still i stood up... i don't know how i managed to say it but i said 'sir, we're here to say sorry' he replied 'why, have you done something to me that you should be sorry about?' again, i was silenced by that...

and when i came back to my senses i said, 'well, not actually sir but this is a class problem and we're still part of the class...' (my two friends are maybe as nervous as me that's why they did not manage to speak to our instructor)...

relief came when he said... 'oh that, don't think about that, that's over...'

i was so like 'i wish and i command myself that i heard right'... that was the most wonderful words i heard on this day... it brought relief and joy to me... but i still have mixed emotions at that time...

i just hope and pray that everything would be okay tomorrow... if not, i don't know,, maybe i would still be sad, but not as sad as before...

thank you sir so much! i learned a lot from this experience...

you want to know what they are? hmmm...

"if you fail to prepare then you are preparing to fail" i don't know who said this but our instructor quoted this to us the day he got mad... makes sense right... it pierced deep in my heart...

"never take things for granted" maybe this is the reason why we were not prepared, we take the course for granted and that we don't spend considerable time studying the concepts everyday and practicing them... now i learned, and would take action... study everyday... do not procastinate!

"never be selfish" before taking any action, consider everything, not just yourself but how someone might take it... this would avoid any misunderstanding and all that...

"always respect the people in authority" maybe one of the reasons why our instructor was deeply hurt is because we did not show respect (not that we were really disrespectful, just did not consider him) in some ways...

and lastly...

"learn to stand up, admit your mistakes and say sorry" because you know what, after doing so, i felt really really relieved and light... so now, whatever happens tomorrow (or should i say later cause its morning already), i know i've done my part to the situation...

i really learned a lot... maybe this is the reason why God let me experienced this...

thank you sir...

and thank you Lord...

have a great day guys...

just posted this to share everything that happened today,,,

what a day!

until next time...